Well, first off if your reading this, you're either a friend or an internet stalker. Eitherway, I hope you are a friend and not a stalker.
Im 20 years old, I'm employed, have my own place and pay my own bills. I also live with my wonderful Boyfriend. Who means absolutely everything to me. He is my best friend and my mannn. :] Unfortuantly I have a weird thing about telling people what is really on my mind so I have created this blog so that I can bitch about stupid bitches and rant about little stuff.
It's weird to be out of highschool living in a different place and not seeing those people everyday. I kinda miss it. I miss seeing all those stupid people and my friends. My friends the most, because I live far from every single one. Its sad that my best company is my cat. Who is currently watching me type this right now. I have lived here for almost a year well, probably a year all together and havnt made a single out of work friend. Which is partly my fault because I havnt gone out and done anything. But, I feel as though id loose my job because everything is usually during the morning, and thats when I start my work shift. Is in the morning. I really want to go to school and start my career but, I can't. No money, no finacial aid. Nothing. Its kinda embarrassing that all of my friends in highschool are going to college and im just sitting on my ass going to work, :s I mean. Most of them have there parents paying for them. But, still.
Also, Since ive been with my boyfriend I have gained some massive body fat. Ive gained about 40 pounds since we got together almost 7 months ago. I finally got a gym membership to loose all the weight but I feel kinda discouraged like nothing is going to happen. I went on a diet, and lost five pounds. But, I gained it back really quick. People dont realize that nothing makes you happy when you are unhappy with yourself. Most people just dont understand. I used to be so skinny, A size 3. and now im a size 9. I don't fit into anything. Even my boobs have grown and they hurt all the time. My body just isnt adjusting well to all this new fat.
Ive been to the gym two times. So hopefully. Something will come out of this.
